It’s been awhile since I’ve been here. Where was I? Well life gets in the way sometimes and you get busy. I’m still working but retirement is getting closer and I’m ready for it.

Aeon is ten and I have a grandson now. Shannon passed away last February. Most of my grief is for my grandchildren though, for the grandmother they’ll not have. I wish somethings could have been different but I have no regrets.

I still get up at four a.m. every weekday and go to work. My brother retired this past March (lucky bastard) but he’s older than me so he deserves it. I’ve been contemplating what I’ll do in my retirement. I was thinking of buying a camper, getting my brother and go live on a lake near the grandkids. Go travel and see things together. Make up for all the time we had to do other things instead of being brothers.

We’ve discovered discord and made a lot of friends there however we use it every evening to chat, relive some memories and laugh. We video chat with one of his sons regularly. I wish I could say that I am happy. For the most part I am but I’m lonely sometimes. My daughter, her husband and grandson live with me and despite seeing Nathan every night I miss companionship. My wife had a lot of issues that never allowed her to bond with me so that feeling was always there. Now she’s gone and I feel an opportunity to find that connection with someone yet I’m older and afraid that time may have passed. I don’t do dating apps, go to church or night clubs so I’ve limited my resources of meeting someone. I’m a regular at a local lodge just so I can see the familiar faces of the girls who work there. I’ve got about a dozen guitars and have been playing a lot with people I’ve met of discord but I feel I’m ready to start writing again and so I’m back here.

It’s been awhile and it feels good to be back.