"if I ever go looking for my heart's desire again, I won't look any further than my own back yard. Because if it isn't there, I never really lost it to begin with." -Dorothy
It’s been awhile since I’ve been here. Where was I? Well life gets in the way sometimes and you get busy. I’m still working but retirement is getting closer and I’m ready for it.
Aeon is ten and I have a grandson now. Shannon passed away last February. Most of my grief is for my grandchildren though, for the grandmother they’ll not have. I wish somethings could have been different but I have no regrets.
I still get up at four a.m. every weekday and go to work. My brother retired this past March (lucky bastard) but he’s older than me so he deserves it. I’ve been contemplating what I’ll do in my retirement. I was thinking of buying a camper, getting my brother and go live on a lake near the grandkids. Go travel and see things together. Make up for all the time we had to do other things instead of being brothers.
We’ve discovered discord and made a lot of friends there however we use it every evening to chat, relive some memories and laugh. We video chat with one of his sons regularly. I wish I could say that I am happy. For the most part I am but I’m lonely sometimes. My daughter, her husband and grandson live with me and despite seeing Nathan every night I miss companionship. My wife had a lot of issues that never allowed her to bond with me so that feeling was always there. Now she’s gone and I feel an opportunity to find that connection with someone yet I’m older and afraid that time may have passed. I don’t do dating apps, go to church or night clubs so I’ve limited my resources of meeting someone. I’m a regular at a local lodge just so I can see the familiar faces of the girls who work there. I’ve got about a dozen guitars and have been playing a lot with people I’ve met of discord but I feel I’m ready to start writing again and so I’m back here.
It’s been a minute since I’ve been here. That being said, what do I say? I’ll start here. I work a lot. If I’m lucky I get get four hours a day with my wife before I need to go to sleep and do it all again. If I don’t I get less sleep and each day I become more tired and make poorer decisions. I come home more tired. As I get older this becomes a problem. Where I need to go to sleep earlier and if not I’m even more tired than I was the next day.
ZZZZ
I’ve been doing it for along time. Ever since my daughter was born 30 years ago and that’s okay. A father is suppose to do that. Go to work and make sure the bills are paid, there is food and shelter. Everyone is okay and has what they need and maybe even what they want. Or think they want.
Then ÆON was born. She came early (25 weeks) and had little chance of survival but she did. Of course she did, it was someone else there that needed me. And it went like this from the day she was born.
It keeps happening and happening. I need you Papa, I need you Dad, I need you husband. I need you foreman I need you neighbor, I need you friend. Something different happened when ÆON was born though. She answered me on a FaceBook message when she was just days old. Or rather through me. She replied for me. To this day I don’t know how.
When she was born so early and unexpected, the nearest hospital Mercy didn’t have a NICU at the time and so she needed to be life flighted to the nearest one. Which happened to be Little Rock Children’s Hospital and so she was. Once there they placed her in a incubator that had a live web cam to watch her with. We watched as nurses came and went. Procedures were performed and different colored lights bathed her as she slept.
We had to make quick arrangements for my daughter (her mom) and my wife (grandma) to get there. Money was tight and everyone was scared. I had to go to work or we’d not be able to pay for something like water or gas the next week. The demon of living paycheck to paycheck.
When they finally got there the next day I had no contact with either of them until I was able to get home from work, log into facebook messenger and see what happened. Had my first granddaughter lived or survived. I was scared to ask and uncertain what to say. Muddy and tired I logged into to check on her but the nurses were doing something and turned off the camera. I logged into facebook unsure what to say. “They left the camera off the whole time they were in there.” I said. My wife replied,”Yes. And I can’t see it here on the wifi. Kara hasn’t got to hold her yet.”
I took a drink of beer and took off a boot. Looked up and had replied,”She will.” Except I never said or typed she will. I had been hacked the first and only time. Something or someone else replied for me in the matter of seconds. I was the only one home. Perplexed I tried to explain to my wife that wasn’t my reply. She already over whelmed with the situation and could comprehend what I was saying.
She will.
And she did. She’s here now and four years old. We did it. She spent most of that time with us, grandma and grandpa but she’s started to Pre-K now and beginning to grow up. Today I saw worry in her eyes for the first time. And that worried me.
I’ve seen laughter, joy, excitement as she realized that this was mine. Her first bed, her first bike. Her babies. Plush toys that make her so happy. The need to go fishing again. I’m not the best grandpa but I want to be. Thanks to ÆON I will.
She still has her grandma. She loves to sing and play ukulele.
All I know is, she will. Monday morning I’ll go back to work and come home again. I’ll look forward to seeing her next weekend and we can do it all again. Maybe this time we’ll go fishing. Or play karaoke or guitar or both.
For over ten years now I have given up watching television or playing video games. Instead I spent my free time reading Freedom Of Information Act Files released by the US government. I went from scripted, made up programing to what our government has actually been doing as a media source. The results blew me away.
My friends call me a conspiracy theorist because of it although I have never listened to Coast to Coast or Alex Jones. I’m not an Art Bell fan I’m a Carl Sagan fan. The views of the world between myself and my coworkers, friends and family became as different as an Atheist and a Christian. I am not a conspiracy theorist, I’m a reader of US government documents. Why such a dramatic change in my life, what’s going on?
Searching through NASA HQ Huston FOIA files I discovered the 1st file ever uploaded was titled Kecksburg UFO. Understand that the data base starts with the last file uploaded and you have to scroll through them chronologically to get to the first one. This took me through hundreds of files related to the Challenger accident which seemed to be strangely blank on most of the files. Finally I had found it, the first FOIA NASA uploaded was called Kecksburg UFO.
It contained a PDF of a manifest from the US Dept of Resources who apparently warehoused objects recovered by NASA and the military. In the early 1960’s NASA and the US military both had a program to track incoming objects in the Earths atmosphere and retrieve them. One was called Sputnik 4 in which they seemed to be able to recover a large part of the spy satellite but also photographs it had taken. They had also retrieved titanium balls and other bizarre objects falling into the Earths atmosphere.
This was the ice breaker. Most likely a spy satellite retrieval mission disguised as a UFO encounter. The two would become ever entwined. Spy missions and UFO’s filled with misinformation. We can’t look up to see what’s going on directly above our heads because there are people wanting to look down.
My friends were more interested in the next Superbowl or big movie. I kept reading.
It turns out we’ve been being watched. Our nuclear capabilities and experiments seemed to draw attention to us humans on Earth.
A group called The Citizens Hearing On Disclosure tried to let us know. Video
What I’ve learned from years of reading US FOIA’s is this. We haven’t made contact because we are being watched by beings greatly more powerful than us. They don’t want to. They may have pretended to be our Gods in our past. Factually, we don’t know.
Over the past week the station has been dedicated to an S-band scan looking for new targets and refreshing the frequency list, triggered by the recent launch of the mysterious ZUMA mission. This tends to be a semi-annual activity as it can eat up a lot of observing resources even with much of the data gathering automated the data reviewing is tedious.
Upon reviewing the data from January 20, 2018, I noticed a curve consistent with an satellite in High Earth Orbit (HEO) on 2275.905MHz, darn not ZUMA… This is not uncommon during these searches. So I set to work to identify the source.
A quick identity scan using ‘strf’ (sat tools rf) revealed the signal to come from 2000-017A, 26113, called IMAGE.
This article initially appeared on eastpendulum.com, a French-language blog about the Chinese military and aerospace industry
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The Yaogan-30-01 trio
Although China is relatively open about its military launches, not much is known about the Yaogan-30 satellites, which are a new addition to the Chinese reconnaissance system. On September 29, 2017, a first trio was launched in a similar orbit, under the designation Yaogan-30-01. China described the purpose of the satellites as being to “carry out technological experiments on electromagnetic environments“, which sounds like an euphemism for signal intelligence.
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The Yaogan-30-01 trio 
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